Ever spend time
Second guessing yaself?
Fuck fuck FRICKING fuck
Fuck you, you know I fucking love you fuuuuuck
I now know I am paranoid and I also know that I can’t make decisions. My decisive side doesn’t exist…
Could defo live in my car if u could
Pushing through the hard times
Lately I’ve not been feeling amazing because of the sheer mass in change in my life. Il
I’m lonely, vunerable and frankly I haven’t felt right in myself for a long long long time. But now I’ve made my bed. I’m going to lay in it I’m going to grow. I’m going to shake this shit up and work until I do feel better
I can’t let any one person ruin my future
Goodnight beautiful world.
Let’s get blogging.
Ok guys, it’s officially a year since I cut weed out of my life for good a and there are a few things on my agenda to now tackle i will list them and repost the list every month with updates on how they are going. Deleting Facebook off of my phone for a start, this should help me being back my creative flair and stop worrying about everyone else.
- I’m now so close to 15stone in weight and I don’t like it so to loose at least 4 stone would be massive for me
- my moods and personality are diar due to my ex-drug habit so I need to work on my outlooks on life and do some self help and relaxation
- I spend to much time on my ass. I don’t move enough, I need to start walking and 30 minutes a day to start off with would be a good start.
- I don’t get creative any more because I overwhelm myself and end up getting upset that there’s so much I want to do and I don’t know where to start.
1- to give up weed COMPLETE. (1 year)
2- to get moving and loose weight
3- to get creative, with my emotions
4- to give myself as much love and help needed to feel better about my life
First art project:- anxiety, how I feel. How others feel . How I deal with it. What makes me anxious? (Whenever I speak I’m anxious about what I’m saying who will I upset, have I said it right? Why couldn’t I keep my mouth shut?) research different meanings, different levels.
Take care of number 1